My Fingers Got Restless :)

Sometimes I am seized with the urge to write something.

Like right now I have so much swimming in my head that it's almost impossible to ever sit still or sleep or anything. But when I sit down to write, it all flows from some place that I don't know about and touches my fingers and suddenly complete chaos starts to make a little bit of sense. I like these moments. I like feeling like I have infinite things to say. I'm sure you, whoever you are, get quite tired of my ramblings. But I don't write for you so that's okay. :)

I love my fellow writers. When the right words fail me, when description alludes me, there is always someone else in history who can say exactly what I feel. And I feel a little less alone in my complicated thought processes and emotions. Whether it's King David, Shakespeare, Austen, the apostle Paul, Donne, Job, C.S. Lewis, these and more weave sense with their words what life would jumble into chaos.

And the beautiful thing is that none of them, not one of the greats, was ever perfect or would ever claim to be perfect. Which is wonderful because I'm a first-rate screw up. I'm passionate about relationships-that which I suck at-and I'm prone to hurt the ones I love and I do things that I don't mean. And things happen that I don't understand and all the while words fail me and emotions suffocate me until it all wells up inside and my fingers start to shake with tension until it is released with the tapping of keys.

Deep breath.

And these greats, who were not so great, who were average and down to earth and aware of life and reality, these greats help me to see things clearly. It's always okay to question God;He's big enough to handle that. There is always a resolution to the madness. Sometimes even the character who seems to be the worst (myself) gets a second chance. The prize is always worth the pain. One cannot exist without the love of others and God, and cannot give love without God. There are always hardships to test every fiber of your being, but the heart that continues to seek God will find rest. And God can heal even the deepest doubt with His grace, that it may declare His glory to many people.

And now to conclude with some quotes by writers:
There's nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein. ~Walter Wellesley "Red" Smith

You must stay drunk on writing so reality cannot destroy you. ~Ray Bradbury

The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say. ~Anaïs Nin

The act of putting pen to paper encourages pause for thought, this in turn makes us think more deeply about life, which helps us regain our equilibrium. ~Norbet Platt

Ink and paper are sometimes passionate lovers, oftentimes brother and sister, and occasionally mortal enemies. ~Emme Woodhull-Bäche

The difference between the right word and the almost right word is the difference between lightning and a lightning bug. ~Mark Twain